song cycle

song cycle

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  • recorded: 13 june 2011
  • all songs written by david ding
  • except ‘stereo lies (beautiful oddity)’ written by sarah daly and david ding

first light

hindsight rips right through my nights awake
saying “no regrets” was a mistake
ask myself was it my choice to make
compromises, lies and ties to break

you made it all clear
i just tried to make it here
tell me when the day will break

finding time gets harder every day
lost my trains of thought, i lost my way
used to know the perfect things to say, to you
but silence came and now it’s here to stay

you made it all clear
i just try to disappear
tell me when the day will break

you make it all clear
and i will try to be sincere
just tell me when the day will break


the danger of one

there was a softness beneath your shell
and left exposed, it was hard to tell
what silly things you put us through to make it seem like you’re the one
who’s self-assured and in control – the truth is you’re just holding on

and there’s a danger with her that there just isn’t with you
and though it’s what i prefer, i really like what you do
i don’t care
if what i went through is due to happen again
i’d like a friend in you to keep me warm till the end
unaware
her moves unsettle the mood, disturb the air in the room
and she’s not misunderstood, it’s just a pose she assumes
everywhere
there’s a danger with her that there just isn’t with you
whatever feelings occur, i think you always knew
i don’t care

but the comfort could only go so far
before we realized what we really are
she felt compelled to put to words emotions that she’d been leaning on
and i can’t reflect; the lines are blurred; she crossed them; and now the warmth is gone

and there’s a danger with you that there just isn’t with her
i’ve always liked what you do and now i know it for sure
i’m aware
what i went through before; it was a one-off event
i want a friend in you; in you i’ll be content
everywhere
i know she wants us to think that she can do it alone
and that we’ll follow the string accepting all that we’re shown
unprepared
there’s a danger in you that there just isn’t with her
and yeah i love what you do; she knows it’s you i prefer
i don’t care


WHERE DID IT ALL GO SO WRONG?

i’ve got my options all lined up
and i’m on my way
as i prepare myself for the final test
i think i’m going to stay

and at first it doesn’t look so good
as the future falls apart
where did it all go so wrong?
where did it all go so wrong?

but as the sun begins to set
i see that things aren’t decided yet
and the hazy orange glow
illuminates where i’ve got to go

i’m on my way


panna felsen

well you may need my help and i may look the part
and wouldn’t it be just so easy to(o)
but how do i know that you won’t disagree?
that once we start, you won’t change your plea?

i’ll wrestle with this

and i will tell you what i think we should do
just don’t expect me to blindly follow through
because i’ve been down here before
yes, i’ve been right here before
and the last time didn’t leave me wanting more

i’ll wrestle with this

you know i’d like to help, but it’s a question of trust
my trust in me; my trust in you; in what you say being what you do
because i’m not ready for another trip down that fucking road

i’ll wrestle with this


stereo lies (beautiful oddity)

celluloid spies
control your eyes
while stereo lies
hit from both sides

not what you see
or what you feel
it’s what you believe

how could i
not sympathize
your little smile
you try to hide

those bits of seeds
of doubt you feed
are running free

but you proceed
to disagree
they won’t retreat

but you’re a dream that’s impossible to see
just a dream, you’re impossible to me

wear your disguise
stop asking why
break up those ties
and say goodbye

no other way
nothing you say
can make them stay

and every day
they never age
while you turn grey

but you’re a dream that’s impossible to be
just a dream; you’re impossible

you’ve got to fall on your knees
you’ve got to give it all to me
until you see what you need
and separate the taunts of thieves

you’ve got it all wrong

and when you stop losing sleep
and when you start to believe
they’ll get to see all you mean
and see the true oddity

we’ve got it all wrong


hard to please

took your advice
got guarantees
learned how to fly
stopped wearing green

called you all the time
to see what you needed
but you weren’t satisfied
unless i was bleeding

because it’s so hard to please you
you’re so hard to please
i broke my back so you could stay off your knees

kept my eyes ahead
let you intervene
let you have both sides of the bed when
you said you needed sleep

read the little list that you gave me
and i cut down every tree
showered you with all those gifts
and i kept the receipts like you asked

because it’s so hard to please you
you’re so hard to please
i broke my back so you could stay off your knees
i broke my back so you could keep your fingers clean

i brought you the moon
then you asked me what took so long
i gave you the stars
said they didn’t go with anything
i turned off the rain
then you told me the air was dry
i turned it on again
you complained and still i don’t know why it’s
so hard to please you
you’re so hard to please
i broke my back so you could stay off your knees
i broke my back so you could keep your fingers clean
i had a heart attack so you’d get off with ease
i cut my throat so you’d have more air to breathe


never knew your last name

i said i’m sorry i don’t know why i never told you what i meant
i stumbled just to hold your hand, but i never knew your last name
i fought to be there by your side; i wanted to be there for more
i took a picture of us both, but i never knew your last name

i thought i really had a chance; i didn’t know about it all
i knew that i could make you smile, but i never knew your last name

you never even shared a touch more than when i held your hand
you didn’t want me in the end and you didn’t share your last name


flare

i’d say hello if it didn’t bore me to do so
you don’t have to pretend to notice me
your smile says it all, don’t worry
your smile says it all, don’t worry

your averting eyes are a joy for me to watch
your averting eyes are a joy for me to watch
your sorry disguise is a joy for me to see
your averting eyes are a joy for me to watch

the flavour of your face is making me sick
the flavour of your face is making me sick
your smile says it all and you’re making me sick
the flavour of your face is making me sick


casual trap

well we’ll talk about it and i’ll hear what you have to say to me
you attempt to flatter with articulate chatter about everything
about everything you do

do i like what you’re saying? or the face you’re displaying? or in between?
and i know that by staying that i’m disobeying my tendency to do it by degrees

well we’ll talk about it and you’ll hear what i have to say to you
your illusions shatter with the subject matter’s intensity
and everything it means

do you like what i’m saying? or the thoughts i’m conveying? or in between?
do you feel i’m betraying the part you’ve been playing in every scene?
right there upon the screen?

where you like what we’re saying and the fates it’s portraying and everything
even though i’m now straying i can still see you swaying to every beat
and even in between
arrangements incomplete


dig fast

i can’t help but feel i’m repeating the past
the same old mistakes, right up to the last
did i do the right thing? do i know what i want?
did i give up the one thing i’m willing to die for

i knew all along
but still i went on
i did this all wrong
but i’m not taking it back

and now i can’t focus my mind for a second
the thoughts in my head, they need to be ejected

i knew all along
but still i went on
i did this all wrong
but i’m not taking it back


©2011 david ding

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