secret battle

secret battle

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  • released: 28 february 2007
  • all songs written by: david ding
  • artwork by: peter stringer

part two

tripped me up and held me down my death was slow i never found the
light that hid under your skin so white i wanted to be in it

landed on my lap i did not take the time to bat eyelids i
knew the plan was keeping score and knew you’d trap yourself once more so

out i got and out i ran out of your grip your clutching hand i
took the best to make it last and put the rest into the past i

got my head above the ground under the red and all around my
second thoughts got left behind as i got to the other side i

crashed into this night of two and understanding what to do i
gave myself my second part and closed the door so i could start


zenza

take my time; my oyster’s the world; bell won’t chime; don’t want it to
see that sign; tomorrow’s outside; undefined, but overdue

see that smile; the ice starts to burn; hear that chime; 止まります
step outside; there’s smoke in my eyes; cross that line before it’s passed

take my time in finding the words; try to hide with no excuse
slip and slide, employing the curve; oversized but underused


gaijin crime

you, you know there’s nothing left to teach to show. there’s nowhere left to be
to go. there’s no one left to see to know. there’s nothing left for –

before they came it was so safe; there was no flame; there was no rape
but there’s no blame and there’s no hate; there is no shame; just close the gate

you and me – they watch us as we eat and sleep. they want us to retreat
our feet should shuffle in defeat; discreet as we creep away but

we’ll break the rules that cage us in
we’ll bend the truth that states the sin
we’ll smash this culture from within
we’ll show them all whose side will win

we’ll shut the doors, won’t let them in
we’ll weed them out; we’ll purge the 人
we’ll cut them down; we’ll save our skin
we’ll show them all whose side will win


the ties that don’t

i’m making connections through empty space on the floor
forsaking protection from what has burned me before
i’m lying and waiting for something to turn into more
but nothing ever happens

i’m making connections up in the air and above
attaining perfection or closer than i ever could before
i’m anticipating the thrilling beginnings of love
but nothing ever happens

we’re making connections and turning our hands into hearts
we’re trading affection but over before we can start
the games that we’re playing are violently coming apart
but nothing ever happens

you’re making connections to what i’ve seen in the dark
parading rejection is how he’s making his mark
the fire’s abating; the wire’s still got a spark
but nothing ever happens

i’m breaking connections and i’m denying rapport
i’ll take recollections, but i won’t lie any more
i could stay here waiting for something to turn into more
but nothing ever happens


rsg

missive from an rsg – a carnival for you and me
she’s smiling on our glowing screens – you’d never know she’s just fourteen
though typical her family – mistakes are made – a kid, you see
her hero was miss t mckee – a victim of autonomy

you sound like
the right type
your letter
gets better

artistic is this rsg – and well-developed physically
it did not breach normality – this juvenile pornography
she falls to peers so naturally – just 2k to play happily
and all of us who want to see will satisfy salacity

but you don’t get my sympathy – my conscience doesn’t come for free
i’ll scratch your back conditionally – but never will i wash your feet
and you can keep your privacy and hide in anonymity
but through the looking glass you’ll see the victim of an rsg


parallel

i know you’re waiting; you think that things can change
but this wheel’s in motion and that motion’s staying the same

and we can wait but these lines will not converge
there’s a never-ending distance
and we’re close but we’ll never get closer

there’s tribulation in ending what’s only begun
and no consolation in doing what has to be done

and we can wait but these lines will not converge
we’re parallel; side by side, but never getting closer

and you’re still waiting; you think that things can change
but we’re on a straight and we’re not going to deviate

and we can wait but these lines will not converge
there’s a never-ending distance
and we’re close but we’ll never get closer


dig fast

i can’t help but feel i’m repeating the past
the same old mistakes, right up to the last
did i do the right thing? do i know what i want?
did i give up the one thing i’m willing to die for

i knew all along
but still i went on
i did this all wrong
but i’m not taking it back

and now i can’t focus my mind for a second
the thoughts in my head, they need to be ejected

i knew all along
but still i went on
i did this all wrong
but i’m not taking it back


always sincere

are you ready for something sweet
something to give you your specific heat
and you can hide, but i will seek
so don’t be shy; you’ll take it from me

well don’t you know just why you’re here
have no shame and have no fear
this is my gift of expertise
i’ll take your wound; i’ll take your disease

are you ready for your second dose
pain and starvation are drawing close
but i can help; i can guarantee
so don’t be afraid now; you’ll take it from me

well don’t you know how lucky you are
i’ll make you a bright white shining star
so close your eyes; get on your knees
i’ll take your wound; i’ll take your disease

distress; despair; this test; this tear

are you ready for the kind of taste
and the kind of service that can’t be replaced
your conviction will set you free
your next addiction – you’ll take it from me

well don’t you know i’m always here
always delicious and always sincere
all you do is just say please
and i’ll take your wound; i’ll take your disease


vanishing point

i was sitting on the verge
and now i’m lost for words

and there’s no second chance
at least not on this path

the mark is at my feet
it eats into my sleep

you are underground
and your portrait’s upside-down


day 5

i met the challenge, found the balance – they won’t get it from me
they may contend – i will defend and i will never concede
i’ll take my time; i’ll draw the lines; i will not die; i’ll prevail
this secret battle is unravelling but i will not fail

i’ll see it there
i’ll walk around
i’ll be aware
i won’t go down

they’ll set their traps – i won’t collapse; i’ll stand my ground; i’ll sustain
i won’t comply; i will defy; i won’t abide; i’ll maintain
i’ll realize; i’ll recognize that there is only one way
this secret battle will unravel but i will not allay

i’ll seize the day
i will attack
i’ll get away
i won’t come back

this dream is over, eyes are open and i’m running away
this secret battle will unravel and i’ll make my escape
this dream is over, eyes are open and i’m running away
this secret battle will unravel and i’ll make my escape

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©2007 david ding